are these my plans? no, that's the sure way to make God laugh; tell Him your plans. no, these are dreams and a daily todo list that blinks in my head. sometimes i get to do a few of these things. we'll see what God has in store for other days.
we can't do it all at once, but all of these are desires of mine every single day. and it is agonizing at times to choose. and agonizing to wait for others. i chose to cancel bible study, the homework was dry, Brockman was not happy with the childcare, i just wasn't getting much from this particular curriculum/group. for now i will study with "she reads truth" God knows i need to be in His word, there's just different ways for each one of us. has this happened to you? have you had to drop something that was supposed to be good for you? i think it's good if we live true to ourselves (not easier) but better constantly improving, learning, learning... learning.
i don't know if anyone still reads my lonely blog, but if you are i hope i have helped or inspired you in some way today.
...and then the next day i want to learn how to surf while taking photos of old city architecture, while studying under renown acting coaches, while spending a month in Tavarua watching my husband catch his favorite waves, while enjoying an anisari yoga class, while digging deeper into Ephesians, Psalms, Proverbs and the life of Paul, while spending weeks and weeks with my mother, while watching a monarch butterfly emerge from its chrysalis....